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Hallo~ I am Clairene (You may call me Klara or Bubbles if you please)


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So after watching Hetalia, Russia slowly became my favorite character of the series. Now he's my favorite out of all of my favorite shows. Why? Because Russia is someone I can relate so much. The more I learned about him the more I realized how much I have in common with him.


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When I was 3 I was often bullied by everyone in my class (I was in preschool back then). I was bullied because of my clumsiness and my differences. I had very different opinions from others as well. My teachers weren't all that kind to me either, and again because of me being such a screw up. It makes me sad that I seemed to doubting my life at such a young age too.

So I was always alone. I had no friends. No matter how much I tried (or attempted I'd say) no one really wanted to be my friend, or talk to me like I was a normal person. No matter how much I seemed to try to get other kids to see I was normal and a human being just like them my attempts were laughed at which put me into deep depression for years. I being angry, agressive, and violent without really knowing it. I was often unaware of my cruelty towards others like Russia. This caused others to find me intimidating. I could just stare at someone or kindly compliment someone and they'd be frightened. As much as it seemed like I didn't mind I was always very hurt by this.

Because of my lack of friends I didn't really know what a friend was (and this is still going to this day, but at least I have friends now) so, because I was so desperate to make friends I was willing to be friends with anyone who'd accept me. The ones I was "friends" with was a brat, rude, obnoxious and didn't really care for about me or my feelings.

Because of me being constantly mentally hurt I was a big cry baby then. When others interacted with me I wanted to show them how kind and compassionate I could be. Some saw I had a nice sense of humor. Most just saw that I was "adorable" but clearly very scary and weird.
These events caused me to be very shy, but I was always scared to be left alone or just being alone, but never have I thought that my whole life I'm actually always alone. Up to this day I'm still very childish. Though my passive agressivness has always stayed with me.

I was often rejected by animals for they didn't like me and were terrified of me too. My dogs were petrified of me but they are now very forgiving and I'm guessing they must of understood what was up with me at some point. Like Russia was rejected by a hamster, I was rejected in the exact same way as my own guinea pig (who happened to be the same color as the hamster. Tru story bruh. ) I was also very eager to befriend my own pet guinea pig, but that didn't happen.

Anyways, 10% of the school saw me as kind and sweet (but they knew I had some kind of dark side) 40% of the school saw me as a crybaby but knew my mood could switch to agressive quickly (again with me very unaware of it) The remaining part of the school found me as a true terror. Because I had a hard time making friends I somehow ended up befriending my teachers, though I scared them too. (By the way this is all 1-7th grade. I'm currently in 7th...shhh)

I soon made friends (who are butts, but I truly adore them.) One day, in 6th grade I couldn't take the pressure of being called names, even if it was friendly teasing, I just broke down. (Also this is during Physical Education, apologies for not being very specific) They saw me crying which was so weird. No one had seen me cry in YEARS. They threatened to hurt whoever hurt my feelings. Every time I think about that I realize they really cared for me. I had someone who cared about my feelings for once and would actually stand up for me, and finally notice me. Honestly even my friends find me very scary, but they know why and they don't really blame me. Hopefully they know I just had a difficult past


•*´¨`*•.¸¸.•*´¨`*•.¸Things I have in common with APH Russia¸.•*´¨`*•.¸¸.•*´¨`*•\

1. We are both unaware of our own cruelty

2. We both have the big noses (mines is big outwards < >.)

3. Our scarves have been given to us by someone very important to us (I wear mines constantly but not all the time)

4. Wears scarf almost everywhere

5. Even animals reject us

6. We are found scary and intimidating by others

7. We may or may not have a hard time interacting with people

6. Soft voice

8. We make a certain noise when upset or agitated

9. We both think certain people are our friends but the feelings aren't returned from them

10. We both have a nice obsession for sunflowers (Me and my mom use to plant those but I haven't seen one grow again since)

11. Have an older sister that is nearly a motherly figure

12. We can just quietly, and calmy stare at someone and they'd be petrified

13. We are both (which suprises others around me) childish

15. "big boned"

16. Them cheeks tho

17. We̗͔̰̯̭̰̞ ̫̩̹͕̮͕͉g̥͔͎̤̰̙̱e̞͚̞̝t̜̮̲̭ ̲̟͎g̥͇͎͇̘̬r͓̥̮̰e̤a̫̰͙t̞̝̼ p̳͓͍̭̯l͈͇̰̥ḛ̰̫͓͎as͕u̱͇̹re͈̤̪̱̼ ̤̦͓̝̻s͇͍̥͉̝̩m̭͉̬̖ile̠͖ ͇̫̭̻a̪̳̝̞͎̮t͉ ̬͚̥͇̫̘t̯h̲̳͔͉ͅe̖ s̫͉͙͙i̠̺̪̯͈͇g̝͓̺͈̙ͅͅh̯͈̦̬t͉̗͈͉̖ ̹͇̯̖̗̣ͅo͕͓̠͚̫̼f o̤̠͎̞ͅth͎e̻͍͉̳͍͚r͓͍̬͚̦̼͉ṣ̤̥̝̦ ̦̫̻̜͉̠s̜̺̱͇͚̞̥u͙̪͈̜̮̞f͔f̹͎̲̯̣͎e͎̳̺r̯i̭̲̫̩͚n̹g͈

www.youthink.com/quiz.cfm?acti…>What Hetalia Character Are You?

I got Russia (Human name is Ivan Braginski) - What Hetalia Character Are You?

You are Russia. You are probably a dark person, but mostly because of your childhood. Most people are scared of you, and, at times, they do have a good reason. You get angry, and sometimes don't know what you're doing. You're very protective of things that you care about, and if anyone hurts anything you care about, you'd end up killing them, most likely. You enjoy things that you can't have, and may stalk someone that you care about. All in all, you are a misunderstood person, also probably a bit crazy, but that's because people don't go underneath the surface, and those who do, do so in the weirdest way.

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chubby russia is cutest russia.
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Thanks for the fav!